I don’t know about you but I have really struggled with corona brain the last few weeks.
At first I was jazzed up about the shelter in place orders because I’m an introvert and love some alone time. And I work from home so it didn’t really affect me. But I have really noticed how unaware I’ve been the last few weeks (and remember that AWARENESS was my word of the year!).
I’ve been unaware of how the negativity of social media and the news can bring all of us down. I’ve been unaware of my negative self-talk and just letting it run rampant. I’ve been unaware of the tasks I want to accomplish and creating the energy and motivation to get them done.
It's not like I haven't been busy - I've been gardening like crazy and working with farm animals like a pioneer (which has been awesome)....I've just simply been floating along and not purposefully moving toward my goals and the action items. I've lost awareness of what I'm doing.
And pretty much everyone I talk to is feeling the same way.
So while my uncollected and wild brain will try to beat me up for dropping the ball yet again (can’t you just hear that shameful voice in your head?), I’m going to tell it to shush, have compassion for myself and our current pandemic predicament, and refocus my energy.
Tonight I’m posting on my website (one of the things I’ve been negligent in doing) and I’m spending time in nature to calm my mind. I actually am out in nature a lot but a lot of that time is not spent in calm reflection but in getting tasks done.
For the benefit of those who might be cooped up inside, here is a short video showing my view while laying in the grass this evening. I hope it brings you peace as it did me.
Note:
I continued to have compassion for myself because I couldn’t actually post this when I wanted. My internet service has been incredibly SLOW! I can’t even pull up my website to work on it. So instead of having corona brain and disparaging myself, I’m having compassion and understanding for the situation we are experiencing right now. And while I can’t post to my website, I am getting a lot of enjoyment from working in my garden and accomplishing farm work. ONE DAY I will once again have internet bandwidth to upload to my website! :)
This post was originally written April 25, 2020 but is finally able to be posted May 1, 2020.
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